10月2日の日記

as you know， I’ve been frustrated with relationship stuff.
I met up with my firend and told her about things.
(girls do all the time， right? ::)

she said
"you should find a guy who fits you but one just aviarable".

..ouch.

"You are ususally strong but when it
comes about relationship you get so weak .
Don’t pick anyone and keep being alone until you get used
to it otherwise you will keep making mistakes. "

I’m so dependent.
depndent on "always having somebody around me".
hmmmm，，， I’d never been alone for
more than 10 years! It’s kind of hard to be now.

... but I have to.
i know that.

ah， she also told me
she enjoys knowing what’s happening to my relationships because it’s like a sitcom.

urghh!

one day I feel totally fine then not the other day.
up and down up and down. sily silly silly.

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i will be back soon.